Initially I had intending to write this out as an email question for membership, but it may have a more appropriate place here. Realizing the existence of this group has made me more open minded, and I hope I can garner the right attention for this proposition.
I have nothing but the utmost admiration for the message and efforts of the Free State Project, and I am considering pledging to this cause. I do not adhere to violence, racism, and bigotry, no matter how innate it seems to this world. My only issue is placing myself in New Hampshire. I am very close, I reside shortly south of it, and I will continue my desire to move because there is greater freedom. That is, however, is my main issue. Greater freedom is not total freedom, and I am more of what you might consider apolitical than anarchist. I don't want to change anybody, but I definitely don't want anybody trying to change my deepest values. I understand I will be happier there, but not my happiest, and that is why I will continue to work towards my dream whether or not I have help in any regard.
For a long time, a cabin in the woods was going to be good enough, growing my own food, electricity never being a necessity. It was a terrible paranoia that killed that thought for me, and unfortunately so, because it was evidently achievable. Many mountain men live righteously, and I still envy them. You never really own the land here though, or anywhere else, you have to pay for it. I know, it might seem a bit silly to complain about land tax when it's dug deeply into every nation. I could not live there without what I hated the most, money. I didn't want any income at all, I just wanted to support myself and be free! So where was I to go? Where is the last place that we can reach to, and hold onto freedom, that evidently is very difficult to stay in?
I looked into international waters. If I could stay there, and be flying under no flag, a citizen of the world, and absolutely not violating international laws, that would be freedom to me. I am not a sailor, I live by a lake, not by the coast, and I've already decided blindly for myself that's the only place I can be in the end. I will not feel finished with my life until I get there, until I reach my dream, and damned if I'll be stopped. Damned I might be, because I feel so paralyzed with fear that someone will try to stop me, because this hasn't really been done before, so I don't know how others with more power will take it. I continued on with more research anyway, I had to at least keep myself from stopping me, and my imagination really got to brewing in this fine cup of brine. Seasteading most will call it, but there's so little evidence of permanency, of self-sustenance, it was turning into quite the depressing search. So I've dug up old ideas, and what my dream is becoming is a never-ending mashup of possibilities. I'm looking into something I can do myself, if I have to. I might be rambling but it's because I've never shared this with anybody but my folks, I don't have any friends, so it's just very difficult in my mind, forgive me.
Pykrete was initially thought up for making aircraft carriers in WW2, and they would've worked in my belief, they just didn't put much work into it before the end of the war. Water and woodpulp, and you have something you freeze into whatever mold you want, join together the pieces like masonry, machine and drill like wood, and it can be unbelievably tough. It's the material I want to use, because I'll be sitting on the main ingredient (granted I'll be needing to distill/freeze freshwater for usage), with one problem. Where will I get the trees out on the sea? How will I keep it frozen? So I looked into bamboo, the wonderful solution that made me about as happy as coming across you guys. It grows fast, it can be shredded in place of the wood pulp, turned into natural pipes to pump air-cooled brine as a refrigerant throughout the hull, used used to cover and furnish the rooms of this floating paradise, used to construct an aquaponics system, is edible itself, as so on. I'd advise you to look into it yourself, it's quite the thing. I have many more kinks to iron out in this grand plan, but there is one advantage that I think will suit this organization well, if it works out in the end. From the initial base, more pykrete can be made for repairs, and for building new independent islands/ships. The bamboo could be grown on multiple floors, and serve as a backup material for floating devices. It is cheap to expand this land, and it doesn't have to stretch outwards, it could be like a tall iceburg, maybe even anchored to the sea floor in time. I dream big, as you can tell, my imagination is a gift and a curse.
I would enjoy working in this field with any of you, but as you can tell, my home is not in New Hampshire. I would be more inclined to move, however, if there was someone with land to spare for my efforts, to be had cheaply, or in exchange for my hard work in any number of ways. I am not afraid to get my hands dirty, I could laugh in the face of storms and other natural dangers. I want to trust people, but it's that innate violence I fear will come upon me before my dream sees reality. If you want my pledge, show me a place in New Hampshire where I can fulfill this vision of mine. I can collect the resources to build it, but I need a launching point. Help me in that way, and I will help you by sharing in the freedom it can give to all us. I want to share this newfound happiness, I want to believe others want it too, so let me try.
Perhaps, I am asking too much. I've come to accept my my mental health as not being exactly 'normal', and I've debated many times with myself whether or not I deserve the freedom I seek.
I want your real opinion on this matter, I would overjoyed if this led to tangible cooperation. Nevertheless, I want more than anything some kind of response, at the very least. Any kind of reply is going to help me feel a little less bottled up about it. I'm sorry if my style of writing isn't easy on the eyes, or if some of what I am saying may be poorly understood, I'll try my best to illustrate any point you ask of with clarity. I'd certainly be more comfortable talking a bit on the subject before pledging, maybe see if someone wants this too. I know of the Seasteading Institute, but I think too organically and desire a natural approach to where I want to live, and it seems they are set on a city meant for most citizens. I don't want that, I can't keep living with that. I want this to be a home for me, from which I can make homes for so many more, not another controlled network to live in.
Alright, I'm going to stop blabbering now. I have much more imagination to tell of, but I need to see how this is taken first. Thank you for reading this through.